Episodes

#38 – Conspirituality, Coercion, & Cult Recovery | Janja Lalich, PhD

Candice sits down with world-renowned cult expert Dr. Janja Lalich -- who retired for a hot minute in 2019 until the pandemic hit and her inbox began blowing up. The episode opens with Janja’s personal story about her involvement in a far-left political cult back in the late ’70s & early '80s. She shares about her role in leadership and the eventual disbanding of the group, speaking candidly about the mental health challenges she faced...

Coming Full Circle

We planned our trip to Boulder six months ago having no idea how perfectly timed it would be. It’s surreal being here, especially on the other side of sharing my ‘cult’ure journey publicly for the first time - a bittersweet fustercluck that began within a three mile radius of where I sit right now, typing these words. The studio where I danced and sweat six days a week… the no-longer-a-dojo where I first learned to meditate… the sushi...

Ep.37 – Fawning vs. Freedom: Debunking Sacred Pseudoscience | Tracy Stamper – Part 4

Candice & Tracy reunite nearly six months after recording their previous convo. They discuss what it’s been like sharing their stories & unpack major takeaways on the other side of a transformative few weeks. Tracy shares new perspective on the tools-turned-weapons of self-help, along with a vision of how she'd like to do group culture differently in the future. Candice speaks about two nervous system adaptations commonly overlooked...

Yeah, me neither

2006, just as I was coming out of my daze in the Org. Have you ever been totally enamored with a person, teaching, or way of life? Captivated (as in held captive) by potential or a promise? Unable to to walk way despite the downright-ugly dysfunction, because saying aw-hell-no means stepping away from a sure thing or a path that feels as though it was carved out specially for you? Yeah. Me, neither. 🙃 But for those who CAN relate (are you...

#37 – Fawning vs. Freedom: Debunking Sacred Pseudoscience | Tracy Stamper (Part 4)

Candice & Tracy reunite nearly six months after recording their previous convo. They discuss what it’s been like sharing their stories & unpack major takeaways on the other side of a transformative few weeks. Tracy shares new perspective on the tools-turned-weapons of self-help, along with a vision of how she'd like to do group culture differently in the future. Candice speaks about two nervous system adaptations commonly overlooked in...

Ep.36 – Braving The Storm: Sour Grapes & The Aftermath | Tracy Stamper – Part 3

Due to unexpected weather patterns, Candice opens up the episode from her bedroom closet where she’s riding out a monsoon thunderstorm. The metaphor is a timely one, as she speaks candidly about a humbling week that put her face to face with her number one challenge — speaking hard truths & disappointing people. This leads directly into the third and final segment of the conversation she had with Tracy Stamper back in March of this...

#36 – Braving The Storm: Sour Grapes & The Aftermath | Tracy Stamper (Part 3)

Due to unexpected weather patterns, Candice opens up the episode from her bedroom closet where she’s riding out a monsoon thunderstorm. The metaphor is a timely one, as she speaks candidly about a humbling week that put her face to face with her number one challenge — speaking hard truths & disappointing people. This leads directly into the third and final segment of the conversation she had with Tracy Stamper back in March of this...

Braving The Storm

Ep.36 has dropped! 🎧⛈⚡️ Candice opens up the episode from her bedroom closet where she’s riding out a monsoon thunderstorm. The metaphor is a timely one, as she speaks candidly about a humbling week that put her face to face with her number one challenge — speaking hard truths & disappointing people. This leads directly into the third and final segment of the conversation she had with Tracy Stamper back in March of this year....

Ep.35 – Guarding The Family Secrets: Flying Monkeys & Lifelines | Tracy Stamper – Part 2

In the fourth episode of the 'cult'ure series, Candice is back with Part 2 of her conversation with Tracy Stamper. In a follow-up to last week, Tracy shares candidly about the devastation she felt in 2017 when she was fired from the high-demand 'cult'ure where she'd devoted sixteen years of her life. She was let go within hours of her father's passing, and the loss - of a parent, a job, an identity, and a community - resulted in feelings of...

#35 – Guarding the Family Secrets: Flying Monkeys & Lifelines | Tracy Stamper (Part 2)

In the fourth episode of the 'cult'ure series, Candice is back with Part 2 of her conversation with Tracy Stamper. In a follow-up to last week, Tracy shares candidly about the devastation she felt in 2017 when she was fired from the high-demand 'cult'ure where she'd devoted sixteen years of her life. She was let go within hours of her father's passing, and the loss - of a parent, a job, an identity, and a community - resulted in feelings of...