Episodes

7 Keys eBook | Ch.1 | AUTHORITY

It's a new year, and sometimes you've gotta look back in order to move forward. This week's drop is Chapter 1 of the 7 Keys eBook. This 20-page full color pdf focuses on the first key of courageous self-expression, authority, and pulls from TDP Ep.2 & 3.In this chapter, I share intimate personal stories (duh!) and photos from back in the day - including a detailed description of Dahnhak's infamous and uber-culty 'yeon dahn' practice (that's...

Ep.42 – Resilient AF: Surviving Shame & Christian Fundamentalism | Trina Studebaker

CW: This episode contains reference to physical and sexual abuse, mental illness, and mention of suicide. Please listen with care. It takes a tremendous amount of self-inquiry to get to a place in recovery where you can finally use the four-letter word - cult - and Trina Studebaker has done the work. In this episode, Trina bravely shares her life story with us. It's a story of cultic influence that starts early-in-life with sexual abuse and an...

Lights on

I woke up at 5am to the sound of rain against my window, and as I write these words to you I'm surrounded by darkness... feeling right at home in it. I used to need ALL the lights to be on - at.all.times. I was afraid of the dark for good reason; it used to be unsafe for me to be there. And now here I am... doing this work, hanging out in the shadowy, milky depths... feeling lighter than ever. This isn't a humble brag. It's a testament to...

#42 – Resilient AF: Surviving Shame & Christian Fundamentalism | Trina Studebaker

CW: This episode contains reference to physical and sexual abuse, mental illness, and mention of suicide. Please listen with care. It takes a tremendous amount of self-inquiry to get to a place in recovery where you can finally use the four-letter word - cult - and Trina Studebaker has done the work. In this episode, Trina bravely shares her life story with us. It's a story of cultic influence that starts early-in-life with sexual abuse and an...

DD#4 – The ‘4 Allies’ – Part 2 of 3

Here's part 2 in a three-part series where Tracy & I deconstruct The '4 Allies' as they were presented at 'the Org'.In Part 2, we take a peek at the second ally/agreement: "Don't Take Anything Personally."This topic is pretty juicy & we left this conversation unfinished... because life. You should know, this agreement is the most triggering for yours truly, so I did most of the talking (b/c talking what I do when I'm fired up...

Ep.41 – dō(n)TERRA: MLM ‘Cult’ure & ‘Wellness’ Red Flags | Jamie Smith

Candice welcomes friend and activist Jamie Smith to the podcast for an illuminating discussion on the ‘cult’ure of MLM. Jamie spent four years as a sales rep with dōTERRA, a multi-level marketing company known for its high-end essential oils. She shares when she became involved in the company - while battling postpartum depression and shortly after the death of her father - as well as what drew her into work as a distributor. As a health...

#41 – dō(n)TERRA: MLM ‘Cult’ure & ‘Wellness’ Red Flags | Jamie Smith

Candice welcomes friend and activist Jamie Smith to the podcast for an illuminating discussion on the ‘cult’ure of MLM. Jamie spent four years as a sales rep with dōTERRA, a multi-level marketing company known for its high-end essential oils. She shares when she became involved in the company - while battling postpartum depression and shortly after the death of her father - as well as what drew her into work as a distributor. As a health...

DD#3 – The ‘4 Allies’ – Part 1 of 3

I'm pretty darn excited to share this conversation with you, because it's one that I found truly transformative. 🙌🏽Here's part 1 in a three-part series where Tracy & I deconstruct 'The 4 Allies' as they were presented at 'the Org.' We compare *how they were applied* with Don Miguel Ruiz's presentation in his 1997 book The Four Agreements, and come to some pretty startling ah-has along the way. This conversation helped both Tracy &...

Wellness ‘Cult’ure Red Flags

Here are 8 arguments commonly used to deflect responsibility and/or diminish the experience of folks who've have experienced abuse. Personally speaking, I encountered every one of these lines of defense in new age 'wellness' communities where I worked and studied for two decades... AND I was also, at times, very much guilty of perpetuating them. Mental health awareness isn't just about how to respond in a moment of crisis... it's also about...

Ep.40 – Higher-up & Better-than: Origins of The Cult Persona | Solo Episode

In another solo episode of the 'cult'ure series, we take a deep-dive into childhood conditioning and explore how ‘family systems’ might shape susceptibility to influence. Candice shares a recent ah-hah around her 'triggers’ and how allowing herself to feel has been helping her to step outside of culty indoctrination. Complacency is discussed, as the near enemy of mindfulness and as a roadblock to authentic self-awareness. Inspired by the...